I remember when I was younger I would go to sleep at night and have dreams that life was very pleasant. In those dreams, I had everything I thought I needed, I didn't feel bullied by people older than me, I wasn't forced to do what I hated, and there were only feelings of joy. But then I woke up and realized that I was in hell to stay. This, with the eager help of my elders, easily lead me into the open arms of religion and her idol that people call 'God'. Religion was the way for me to have a little bit of inner peace while physically roasting in the fire.
I knew what everyone knew, whether they were religious or not, in that the only way out of hell's fiery furnace was to either get rich quick, or drop dead - the first doing nothing more than lessening the intensity of the heat, and the latter being the only true way out. And since no one wanted to die (save religious nut-cases or those in terrible anguish), getting rich was the best alternative.
But in these days, where I don't have religion, and I don't know atheism or agnosticism, I still wake up in hell, but I don't feel any heat from the flames. I was lifted out of the fire by those I call 'messengers' - I even remember the very day... January 2, 2006, when I was told what to call God - it wasn't as extravagant or lengthy as the reported flaming bush incident, but I was certainly afraid, just for a moment.
I suppose I could relate this to the story of "Abraham's Bosom" that some ancient Jews used to tell. It was reported that there are 2 sides of hell, one where most people burned because of God, and the other where a very few lived in safety and were not burned. If I were to compare that place to this place, then it would seem that I am on the "Abraham's Bosom" side of hell. And since I'm on the "Abraham's Bosom" side of hell, as it seems, I have no desires of wealth or fears of darkness - only because I am safe (according to the messengers above who speak to those in "Abraham's Bosom").
When you live on the "Abraham's Bosom" side of hell, your perceptions change, your experiences change - and this has been impossible for me to get through to people. I pointed my finger and said, "Look at this", I even stated the obvious so that they could only believe what they plainly see with their own eyes, but none of it ever mattered. People clearly see that they wake up in hell every single day, and they don't expect the next day to be any different - they simply beg and pray to their idols that hell won't be as hot tomorrow - because they certainly don't pray for that idol of theirs to hurl their asses into that dark pit of death... even though it's where they end up anyway.
I thought that if those burning would see us standing over here in "Abraham's Bosom" unscathed by the flames and see us speaking strong downpours of rain throughout hell to perhaps ease the fire, and even make vegetation blossom in the dry places, then they would say to themselves, "What's going on? Why doesn't such goodness happen to me as well? Why do they see everything, but I see nothing? Why does God act on their behalf, but not mine?" but I was wrong. I learned that people don't work things out in their heads this way.
People don't put 2 and 2 together - which should be the logical response when they see God plainly saying to them, "Fuck you and drop dead". For some reason, it makes more sense for people to believe in a 'loving fatherly God' that shows partiality and is just in doing so, speaking to some and not others, than for them to think that those burning in hell are there for a reason. It never crosses their mind to say, "Maybe I should be doing something. Perhaps I should try looking for something. Maybe I'll find something if I start digging." But when those people do begin to ask questions, they prefer to look for a new philosophy and say, "Which new belief should I take hold of today?", and they do not dig for the obvious truth.
I thought that if those burning would see us standing over here in "Abraham's Bosom" unscathed by the flames and see us speaking strong downpours of rain throughout hell to perhaps ease the fire, and even make vegetation blossom in the dry places, then they would say to themselves, "What's going on? Why doesn't such goodness happen to me as well? Why do they see everything, but I see nothing? Why does God act on their behalf, but not mine?" but I was wrong. I learned that people don't work things out in their heads this way.
People don't put 2 and 2 together - which should be the logical response when they see God plainly saying to them, "Fuck you and drop dead". For some reason, it makes more sense for people to believe in a 'loving fatherly God' that shows partiality and is just in doing so, speaking to some and not others, than for them to think that those burning in hell are there for a reason. It never crosses their mind to say, "Maybe I should be doing something. Perhaps I should try looking for something. Maybe I'll find something if I start digging." But when those people do begin to ask questions, they prefer to look for a new philosophy and say, "Which new belief should I take hold of today?", and they do not dig for the obvious truth.
But such are those roasting in the fires of hell, as it seems.
I suppose the only 'good' thing about all of this is that no one stays in hell forever. Those burning end up having the same fate as all animals, and those in "Abraham's Bosom" are removed.
I suppose the only 'good' thing about all of this is that no one stays in hell forever. Those burning end up having the same fate as all animals, and those in "Abraham's Bosom" are removed.
