Waking up in hell...

I remember when I was younger I would go to sleep at night and have dreams that life was very pleasant. In those dreams, I had everything I thought I needed, I didn't feel bullied by people older than me, I wasn't forced to do what I hated, and there were only feelings of joy. But then I woke up and realized that I was in hell to stay. This, with the eager help of my elders, easily lead me into the open arms of religion and her idol that people call 'God'. Religion was the way for me to have a little bit of inner peace while physically roasting in the fire.

I knew what everyone knew, whether they were religious or not, in that the only way out of hell's fiery furnace was to either get rich quick, or drop dead - the first doing nothing more than lessening the intensity of the heat, and the latter being the only true way out. And since no one wanted to die (save religious nut-cases or those in terrible anguish), getting rich was the best alternative.

But in these days, where I don't have religion, and I don't know atheism or agnosticism, I still wake up in hell, but I don't feel any heat from the flames. I was lifted out of the fire by those I call 'messengers' - I even remember the very day... January 2, 2006, when I was told what to call God - it wasn't as extravagant or lengthy as the reported flaming bush incident, but I was certainly afraid, just for a moment.

I suppose I could relate this to the story of "Abraham's Bosom" that some ancient Jews used to tell. It was reported that there are 2 sides of hell, one where most people burned because of God, and the other where a very few lived in safety and were not burned. If I were to compare that place to this place, then it would seem that I am on the "Abraham's Bosom" side of hell. And since I'm on the "Abraham's Bosom" side of hell, as it seems, I have no desires of wealth or fears of darkness - only because I am safe (according to the messengers above who speak to those in "Abraham's Bosom").

When you live on the "Abraham's Bosom" side of hell, your perceptions change, your experiences change - and this has been impossible for me to get through to people. I pointed my finger and said, "Look at this", I even stated the obvious so that they could only believe what they plainly see with their own eyes, but none of it ever mattered. People clearly see that they wake up in hell every single day, and they don't expect the next day to be any different - they simply beg and pray to their idols that hell won't be as hot tomorrow - because they certainly don't pray for that idol of theirs to hurl their asses into that dark pit of death... even though it's where they end up anyway.

I thought that if those burning would see us standing over here in "Abraham's Bosom" unscathed by the flames and see us speaking strong downpours of rain throughout hell to perhaps ease the fire, and even make vegetation blossom in the dry places, then they would say to themselves, "What's going on? Why doesn't such goodness happen to me as well? Why do they see everything, but I see nothing? Why does God act on their behalf, but not mine?" but I was wrong. I learned that people don't work things out in their heads this way.

People don't put 2 and 2 together - which should be the logical response when they see God plainly saying to them, "Fuck you and drop dead". For some reason, it makes more sense for people to believe in a 'loving fatherly God' that shows partiality and is just in doing so, speaking to some and not others, than for them to think that those burning in hell are there for a reason. It never crosses their mind to say, "Maybe I should be doing something. Perhaps I should try looking for something. Maybe I'll find something if I start digging." But when those people do begin to ask questions, they prefer to look for a new philosophy and say, "Which new belief should I take hold of today?", and they do not dig for the obvious truth.

But such are those roasting in the fires of hell, as it seems.

I suppose the only 'good' thing about all of this is that no one stays in hell forever. Those burning end up having the same fate as all animals, and those in "Abraham's Bosom" are removed.

E - Prayer and Hurricanes

As we all know, the hurricanes have been beating the shit out of the US recently, especially in the south. I am 100% sure that people throughout the country have been praying to their gods for these hurricanes to go away or pray that homes aren't destroyed. The result of their prayers - a terrible hurricane that hovered over Florida for days. So people prayed again, but then another hurricane came. So people prayed again, and another hurricane came.

Why don't people use common sense when it comes to God?

I am 100% sure that the ministers have made up some philosophy as to why God didn't do shit for help - it's what they always do. If they couldn't explain away God's silence in these matters, then they wouldn't have the job. On the other hand, if God did help people, then why would they need ministers? The acts of God would be ministry enough.

The word of God is this, "I do some really fucked up shit to mankind, and I allow every evil thing to happen to them." But then the ministers and prophets come along to contradict the word of God and say to you, "God is full of loving compassion. He may not come when you want him, but he'll be there right on time. You are kings and queens, and no weapon formed against you shall prosper." Now, honestly, doesn't it make more sense to believe the simple word of God? It is most reasonable and quite easy to understand - even for children. Actions are everything in this universe, and God's actions are quite obvious, are they not?

If God were to give a message to mankind through those terrible hurricanes, it would be this, "No one ever asks, 'Where is God?' They prefer to pray to quiet idols and make up philosophies rather than pay attention to the obvious truth. So I give them ministers and prophets, and I give them violence and hurricanes."

C - Truth

There was once an archaeologist who went digging in the desert. He didn't know what he was looking for, but he knew that the truth would come to him in time. While digging, he found a treasure chest. So he pulled it out of the ground, opened it and saw that it was filled with gold of all shapes and sizes. He was so surprised that he went and told everyone else what he found. One or two people came and looked at that ancient chest from afar but they were not amazed, others didn't care enough to come out in the desert with him, and some simply didn't believe him. He said to himself, "Surely they will care if I show them gold", so he grabbed a few small gold nuggets - but still, no one sought the truth of the treasure. The man went back to the desert, grabbed some gold from the chest, and was never heard from again - he was presumed dead. There was a violent earthquake, and the chest was buried under dirt and sand.

Hundreds of years passed. There was another man who became an archaeologist. He heard about the story of the man digging, not knowing what he was looking for, but found a treasure chest full of gold in the desert. Some people told the man the story was a fable, others said there are only riches in a days work, some said the story was a philosophical one and nothing more. So the archaeologist went to the desert and began digging and searching for the treasure chest full of gold. He found the chest and the gold and became ecstatic - but then depressed because no one cared enough to come to the desert with him. So he grabbed some of the gold and was never heard from again - he was presumed dead. There was a violent earthquake and the chest was buried.

Both archaeologist went digging for truth - one had no idea what he was looking for, the other did - but they both found the same thing, and they were both astonished because of what they found. They both gained the same truth, but only because they went looking.

The truth must always be looked for, it must always be searched for - because eventually you're going to stumble on something you didn't expect to find.

Even more concerning truth, people will always say what they want to say to you, but watch them - watch their actions - pay attention to what they do. Look around you and look at yourself - because many of you lie to yourselves more than anyone else lies to you - then you cover up a lie with a philosophy as a way to appease your curious mind. Tell the truth to yourself. There are liars everywhere, here and everywhere, there are liars - so pay attention to what you see, especially in the days you seek truth and go digging in the desert (if in fact you decide to go digging in the desert).

If you find the truth - make it useful to others. If others refuse to use it, then keep it for yourself, which is all you'd be able to do with it.

The Case of a Liar...

It seems that everywhere I turn, there are liars around me. If people don't lie with their lips, then they lie with their eyes, or with their smiles, or with their handshakes, or with their hugs, or with their work, or with their media. These are people who have something to either prove or gain - it is typical, and it is quite damaging. Is the truth really this difficult to provide?

You go to court and listen to people trying to prove their cases before a judge and a jury. Why do they need to prove a case? Why not simply tell the whole truth? If the truth proves them innocent, then they are innocent, if guilty, then guilty. There can certainly be no justice without truth. And by understanding this, doesn't it make more sense to always seek the whole (logical) truth before seeking justice?

He may know the truth about one thing, and she may know the truth of another - the complete truth is always there. With truth comes justice, and with justice comes peace. I promise you, each of you, that there will never be peace on this planet without people providing the complete truth. You can hope and pray and protest all you want - but with a world full of liars, expect neither justice nor peace.

Stand By Me...

Tonight, the messengers shined their lights and stated that I should concern myself with my health through my eating habits - and I know what I will do in that regards. You see, I must concern myself with this because I still live on an exiled planet and am not yet treading barefoot through the grasses of Eden with my lovers, even among the colorful flowers and fruit-bearing trees that grow there.

In my semi-good spirit tonight, I thought I'd post a rendition of "Stand by Me", a song you may know well:

When the night has come,
And the land is dark,
And the stars are the only light I see.
No I'm not afraid, Oh I'm not afraid,
Because I know you stand, stand by me.

And Yahweh, Yahweh you stand by me,
Oh you stand by me,
Oh you stand, stand by me, stand by me.

If the sky that I look upon,
Should tumble and fall,
Or the lightning strikes the earth around me.
I won't cry, I won't cry, No I won't shed a tear,
Because I know you stand, stand by me.

And Yahweh, Yahweh you stand by me,
You stand by me,
You stand now, stand by me, stand by me.

In the day of my trouble,
You'll stand by me,
Oh you'll stand by me,
Oh you'll lift me up and stand, stand by me.

A Lesson Worth Learning...

Yesterday, I took some of my friends to Six Flags to celebrate one of their birthdays. I decided not to hang with them in the park since it was so hot outside, so I just dropped them off and told them to call me when they were ready to leave. They called me around 8:30 or 9:00 pm and it had already began to storm. I went on my way, and while driving, the storm and the rains grew stronger, so I took the back roads rather than the beltway (since I figured the beltway would be hectic and I knew I could drive as slow as I wanted to).

While going down the back roads (which is where some farms ran by the government are located), lightning began striking down all around me without ceasing. At this point I'm terrified because I've never seen lightning so close to me, and out of ignorance and fear, I asked Yahweh to remove the storm from above me. Lightning kept flying down all around me and the thunder was extremely loud - so I was still terrified. But then, I remembered Yahweh's character and that He told me He would always save my life and of those who know Him - so my fear disappeared as quickly as it came, and I smiled.

I made it to Six Flags, got my friends and left. While on the way to our destination, lightning struck down once more across the street at a shopping center and knocked out all the power there.

So tonight while speaking to Yahweh, I wondered and asked Yahweh if He protected my life last night during the storm, a spacecraft flew across the sky in affirmation. I then felt His love for me and thanked Him for saving my life, and another spacecraft flew across the sky.

Last night provided me a lesson that I needed to hear and understand. You see, Yahweh told me last year that a terrible and dark storm was headed my way, and I can't help but think that last night's events were symbolic and a reminder of what's coming.

Earth Day...

I thought I'd remind everyone that today is Earth Day - a meaningful day because it was this day in 2001 that Yahweh unfurled His 'Eden Wing' over the Sahara as a symbol of Yahweh's Garden to Brent and to the rest of the world - afterwards, the Sahara was flooded. It is a day that should remind folk that this planet is deep in exile, and probably will be for a long time - but hopefully not for more thousands of years. This is a planet without the compassion of God; a planet full of oppression, pain, and death; a planet lacking the strength and technology of the Maker of life throughout this universe. People want religion, and not God; they want wealth, and not justice; they want power, and not peace; they want pride, and not equality; they want competition, and not cooperation; they want oppression, and not freedom; they want ten thousand fables, and not a single truth - so it is what Yahweh permits them... At least for a little while, because those same people fade away with the other animals, and the Earth does belong to Yahweh.

"I will stand on my guard post and station myself on the rampart; and I will keep watch to see what He will speak to me, and how I may reply when I am corrected... Is it not indeed from Yahweh of hosts that peoples toil for fire, and nations grow weary for nothing? For the Earth will be filled with the knowledge of the glory of Yahweh, as the waters cover the sea." ~ Habakkuk 2:1 & 13 - 14